Can
you see yet? Cause I'm not sure that I can.
I
realized the other day that I really just want to live a life of Joy. I don't
want to be stuck in the muck anymore. So much time is wasted in worry and
disbelief. It's like a darkness, a fog, a layer of thick mist that you just
can't seem to look through. Joy is above the clouds. When you are rising up and
up on the plane you know...and you finally rise above the clouds to the clear
sky. When the blindness of worry is finally removed and the sight of joy is
finally discovered. Even though I have realized it is joy and clarity that I
want...It is really hard to break through the clouds. If I could just be grateful
for the things I have in my life, live in joy, and passionately work hard for
the things that I still need. God has given me the skills I need...so why am I
blind in worry instead of soaring with the joy of hard work and accomplishment.
I often feel like I'm still in the dark...
In
John Chap 9 Jesus comes across a man who has been blind sense birth. The
disciples even ask who sinned the man or his parents that he would be born this
way. Jesus replies that neither have sinned but he is blind so the glory of God
can be revealed. Jesus mixes spit with dirt and puts the mud on the man's eyes.
He tells him to go and wash and when the work of washing is done the man can
see. It just hit me just now what this is saying. When we are faithful even
when we are still blind, when we do the things that Jesus has sent us to
do...at the end of the task our eyes will be opened.
I
have been reading this same passage for the last three days without blogging on
it, because I just couldn't break through the blindness. And yet when I do the
thing that God has given me to do, blog, the clarity comes in the obedient service
to my Lord. The blind man when he comes through the ordeal with church
discipline is once again confronted with Jesus. When he realizes who Jesus is
and has faithfully defended the miracle from God in the midst of the darkness
of the church, he is able to see who Jesus really is. His response is to bow
down and worship Jesus, something only reserved for God.
The
members of the church government tell the man they don't know where Jesus is
from the man is simply faithful with the testimony that he has. I don't know
all the theology, but what I know is I was blind and now I see. Only someone
who is from God can perform such miracles. Faithfulness in the midst of
darkness leads to the clarity of who Jesus is and the sight to believe and
worship.
If
you are still in darkness today, as I feel so many times, may we be faithful to
trust and serve in Jesus and find that we will have sight on the other side.
Whether our darkness is financial worry, the oppression of church leadership
gone wrong, or the debilitation of some physical condition…we can be faithful
to our God and come into the light. May we worship him in the darkness and the
light.
