He did not entrust himself to the people because he knows
all men.
So I’m flying back from a great vacation right now. I just
visited my family. Dad and I played golf 3 or 4 times we floated the river and
I had a great date with my wife. I’m headed back to school back to the books,
back to the study of theology, the study of God. Why then do I, the man
studying God, find myself fighting my demons again on the plane? My mind and
body are so preoccupied with the ache of my own sinful desires I can’t seem to
think of anything else.
I open my bible on my iphone searching for some sort of
safety some sort of salvation. What do I find? Jesus knows me…he knows us all.
In John 2 Jesus turns water into wine, he cleanses the temple, he is giving
sign after sign of who he is and the people are beginning to believe in him.
His disciples believe at the wine tasting at the wedding and they remember the
zeal he is to have for his father’s house has he makes a whip of chords and
tosses the temple tables. Many others come to believe in him because of the
signs he is doing and yet Jesus doesn’t entrust him self to them because he
knows all men.
Jesus knows our thoughts, he knows our hearts, he knows our
desires and intentions. Believing in him doesn’t make us safe. Just because I
am studying God for my life’s work and I am doing so with full faith in him
doesn’t mean that he can entrust himself to me. Why…because my sin still
requires the cross. I still need his life for my life. The battle was raging
only moments ago in my heart, mind, and body require the life, death, and resurrection
of Jesus to set me free. Even though I believe…I am not safe for Jesus.
But he came here anyway.
He knows it wasn’t safe and he came here anyway. The light
entered the darkness knowing the world would not receive him, knowing even
though some might believe they would still not be safe. Even his disciples
abandoned him when he was arrested. But he came anyway.
And he came again today. He came and met with me and gave me
strength. He is my refuge I dove into my prayer journal crying out for help as
the psalmist did and then help came. The Holy Spirit came and met with me and
the void of sin was filled with completeness and wholeness. My desires are
peaceful once again.
I am not safe for Jesus…but he comes anyway.
May he come into your life today as well.
Great post-great timing!
ReplyDeleteMorning comes after sleepless night...always a bad time for me...computer acts up and I want to as well. Then I find you here again and my heart lightens. In His mercy and grace he gives us one another for the journey. Welcome home!