Playing God

Have you ever tired to play God?

There are days when I just want to be God. I just want to get into peoples minds and tell them to shape up. i want to make them shape up. I want to make myself shape up. I want to have all the best answers to all the hardest questions and I want to cause people to listen too them and believe them. I just had a totally off night with my student leadership group. We were just all gone into left field somewhere. I have no idea what exactly was going on. I know I was tired and I wasn't prepared like I wanted to be so I gave half developed answers to some really significant questions. It feels like we had a stall. We have been flying at 50,000 feet so far this year and we had a stall. The engines started to cough and sputter and then we started to fall out of the sky. I was able to start a reserve engine and then crank back on the stick and we landed. It was rough but we landed.

I wanted to jump start all of our hearts and minds I wanted to have the rudder controls for each mind there. I wanted to turn things around to get us back in the air. I wanted to play God. I wanted to have control.

Gen 42 Joseph decides that he wants to play God. His brothers show up and he decides to put them to the test and get a little pay back at the same time. He calls them spies, throws them all in prison, keeps one of them, sends to others to fetch the youngest brother to prove their story, and on top of all that he puts their silver back into their bags of grain just to play with their minds. I get the feeling Joseph is really trying to play God with the minds, hearts, and consciences.

The problem with saying we want to play God in any of these ways is God doesn't play God. He doesn't control our minds, our hearts, or our choices. This gives us the change to royally mess up and hurt people like there is no tomorrow, but it also gives us the change to love. We can choose to give love, commitment, and service to him and to the others around us. We are able to create and inspire others and to be inspired by what God and others have created.

This is one of the many reasons I am glad I'm not God. If I was things might be more controlled and efficient in student leadership, but man would it be boring and the nights when I am off everyone else would be too and they wouldn't have any choice to do differently.

Thank you God for giving us thought and choice, thank you for creating us to be creative. Thank you for my student leaders and thank you for another week and another change to get back off the ground.